today i wrote nothing

billy & kharms did it first.

so do you ever hate writing? i make sure i ask innocently, careful not to reveal the answer i’m looking for. it’s never the answer i’m looking for. i would be such a better writer if i actually wrote. i don’t know why i can’t write more. actually i do know why i don’t write more. it’s complicated, but it’s not really. while my colleagues have their devoted journaling time, i have half page scribbles for when i remember to write. the amount of writing everyone pushes out makes me feel so insecure. everyone has so much to say about everything. if i had to rank the best hip hop writers in the game now, i’d comfortably be like top 20. but the problem is i want to be #1, numero uno, top dawg (no kenny). that’s the obvious downside of not working a legacy media job right now. i don’t have an editor on my back hounding me about a submission. the motivation to write must come from thyself. i did enjoy writing this though so maybe i don’t hate writing.